It's been such a long time since I wrote a long blog post. In fact, it's been such a long time since I've done a lot of things, that I feel that there couldn't be a more ideal time to talk about change and transition than now.
In four days, we'll say goodbye to 2010 and welcome another year. I know it's all symbolic for the changes we go through in our lives and that it doesn't really mean anything in itself, but 2010 has been a unique year for me that I feel it's earned itself a special memoir. A lot has occurred--the good and the bad--and they've all brought me where I am today.
As confused as I feel, there is a confidence bubbling up inside me. It's been there for a while, but compared to previous years, it can be called new. I used to be so afraid to be myself; sometimes I didn't even KNOW how to be myself. I still feel that way sometimes. But now I'm not scared of making mistakes, I know it's what makes us who we are, and I know they're the way we learn. I'm not afraid to go out there and show people who I really am. I am not afraid to love life; to embrace, accept and live it.
God has given me so much in the fifteen and a half years that I've lived, and I know that, in a lot of cases, I made poor use of it. But I'm thankful for it all; every single thing I've been through has taught or reinforced a lesson. I know now that whatever comes my way is a blessing, because there's always an advantage behind every disadvantage.
2010, you and I shared a lot. Thank you for existing, you were one of the greatest years of my life.
2011, you have a lot to live up to.
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