Don't you ever get sick of the bubble you live in? Or is this the pseudo life you've chosen the life you wholly and completely desire? All the games and pretense, is this what you want? Stabbing your closest friends in the back, trying to get everyone to think you're all that just to cover up your self-esteem issues; are you really satisfied?
I'm not addressing you specifically, I'm addressing you and everyone else who acts like you. Your little play? It's not working. Yes, I'll admit, it might be effective on SOME people in certain ways. Some people may actually start believing that you're all that, but that's not going to last. Besides, who are these people really? More fake "friends"?
I'm endeavoring to find out what you're biggest problem is. Perhaps it's the fact that you're idealistic self is the person you currently are; a person who, in my opinion, doesn't have principals? No. I mean, yes, that is possibly why we can never really get along, but that isn't the most defining aspect of your situation. What really shines out to me, I believe, is how you walk, talk and throw in words amidst the general conversation to make yourself appear bigger than you really are.
A few general words of advice; take them or leave them, that's entirely up to you. Smile. Have both confidence and humility; magnifying yourself only goes to show that you feel small on the inside. Forgive and forget. Find true friends. Think about your life and the person you are for a while. Is this who you really want to be?
I find this post really, really interesting. It totally brings the topic into a clear, truthful focus. However, I can tell you that not everyone is a fake- I personally try to be the real me all of the time (except maybe when I'm in some formal-polite situation), and yeah some people don't like me for it, but then I know that the one's that do are true friends. I do know people who fit this catagory well though, specifically one that I was once close to whom I don't really care to name. :) And what's pathetic is that most of the time you can see right through the fake persona. It's depressing how ridiculously sad some people are.
ReplyDeleteYes! That is the most pathetic thing about the whole charade, that we can see how fake it is.
ReplyDeleteI like how you always try to be yourself, high five!